A little more detail in my private life-not intended for children

It's been a few days since I've been on here. Helped one of my friends move on Saturday. It was a lot of fun. She was finally able to move into her own place with her husband. They've been married for almost 3 months, but due to some things, they weren't able to move out until this past weekend. I really like their apartment, even if it is all the way in Temecula, and my friend isn't walking distance from my house now. That part kind of sucks. We put in a full day, and helped them unpack some of their stuff. We were highly productive :) Got home about midnight Saturday night, and made it to bed at about 2. J sent me a text a 3am ish that I missed because I had put my phone on vibrate. I missed the call from him too, woke up when it finished ringing. Called him back, because why the heck was I being called at that time of morning?! I'll give you one guess, but I doubt you'll need it. I ended up going over there; got to his place around 430am ish?  He opened the door with his pants unzipped, and it went downhill from there. Didn't even get a "Hi". I blame it on the lack of sleep, and then later, curiosity, but I actually put up with it. Including putting up with him ignoring me for the next 2 1/2 hours...while he was "getting his". No joke, he was actually talking to other girls at the same time, the entire time. Needless to say, I am not happy with him. I kept at it, because I was curious to how long he would actually ignore me. And once he was finished, he literally passed out while still talking to someone, not sure who exactly she is, but 99% sure it was the same girl. Combine that with me PMSing? Puts me in a pissy mood. Then on Monday, I get a text asking if I'm busy, because he needs a ride to school. Told him I had to watch my gram. Then, today, I finally met this other guy, G, that I've been talking to. He'd been pushing to meet, but I didn't think it was fair to either me or him while I'm dealing with this stuff with J. So, I went on a lunch date with him. While I'm getting ready to leave, I get a text from J. Asking if I'm busy. I told him a friend was taking me to lunch, so I wasn't sure if I could pick him up from school, and I'd let him know. So, I go to lunch with G. I think it went well, though I got some weird vibes from him when we were leaving, so I'm not too sure. I left, and sent J a text saying that yes, i can pick him up. Now, normally, when I'm in the car with him, I drive with my left hand, and lean on my right arm on the center console. Not so today. He got in the car and I didn't so much as say hello, and I was driving with my right hand body angled away from him. We also normally don't speak much in the car, and if we do, I'm usually the one to initiate the conversation. Again, not so today. I didn't really say anything. At one point I asked what he was laughing about (in response to a text he was reading), and he said it was his ex, then was quick to point out they were together before he met me. He said he had run into her and her new bf. Ok, fine. Then, a couple minutes later, he asks me who I went to lunch with. I told him I went with my friend G, and then I left it at that. We get to his apartment complex, and as I'm getting ready to pull up to where I would drop him off at, he asks me if I want to come in for a few minutes. Again, out of the norm. Normally, I'll ask if I'm dropping him off or coming in. So  i go in and sit on the couch. He puts his stufff away, then comes andkisses me. Again, not the norm. Then, of course, he wants the same thing he wanted sat night/sun morn, but is nicer about it this time. I think i did it for maybe a minute, then I stopped, which is not like me. It's also not like him to not urge me to continue, but he didn't. So, he finishes, and we clean up, and I go sit back in my spot on the couch, and start playing a game on my phone. I'm still haven't said much, which isn't like me at all. He kept turning his head to look at me, but I pretty much was ignoring him. Then, when I got up to leave, he kissed me goodbye-as in he intiated it, not me. Usually, I kiss him when I leave. Some might say it's the same thing, because, technically, we're kissing each other, but there is a difference. Either way, judging by the way he acted toda,y I think he could tell I wasn't happy. I'm not sure how to bring up this weekend to him. Part of me wants to send him a text asking him what I am to him- a ride to and from school, an easy s***? Because that's what it felt like thhis weekend. Part of me wants to send him a text asking him if he realizes how much he hurt my feelings this weekend And then another part of me wants to send him a text telling him I want all, or nothing. Truthfully, I'd like answers to all of it. I don't want to set myself up to fall again; I've done it before with him, and it sucks. I'm trying very hard not to expect anything this time around, but it's hard. I give my heart so easily, and I gave it to him a long time ago. I still haven't said I love you, this time around. I doubt I'll be saying it anytime soon. Not with the way things are right now. Maybe if/when I know more of what's going on. Maybe I'll wait for him to say it. I feel kind of like I'm setting myself up to be played a fool. There's still that part of me though, that hopes that this time will be different, that this time, we'll make it through. I'm sure he'll be asking for a ride home tomorrow, so we'll see how it goes.