I'm just not sure about some things...

Haven't heard from G since we went to lunch yesterday. I'm thinking that he didn;t get the right vibe, maybe? I'm not sure, but up until lunch, I got texts morning, noon and night from him, so I can only guess. Also didn't need to give J a ride home from school today which was weird also. It kind of put me out of sorts. I still don't really know what's up with him. I feel as if we're in Limbo. I know that even if, lo and behold, we make it far enough to be committed to each other, we aren't meant for forever, I think. I was talking about it with my friend today, after dinner. I went to dinner with her and her family, for the Chinese New Year. I'm as white as can be, but I'm honorary chinese. But after we got back to her place after dinner, we were talking about J, and about I. She's the one that says no matter what happens, me and I are going to end up together. She said that she had mentioned the same to I's best friend, and he said the same thing. He told her not to tell me, but she already had, lol. He also said that he isn't going to tell I about it either because it would put pressure on him. I totally get that. I don't want there to be pressure for the 2 of us to get together, but I do think that the two of us will eventually get together. It's why I think that J and I aren't meant for forever. I do think we have the potential to last for years. I'm just not sure what he thinks. I need either J to man up and commit, or something along those lines, or I need I to finish being a playboy, and the two of us get together. I feel torn between the two guys. I have feelings for both; I, i've known for about 7 years, and I've had feelings for him the entire time. J, I gave my heart to him so quickly, and I love him. I care deeply for one, and love as a friend, and the other I love as a signifigant other does. Strong feelings for both. I love J, I do, but I think that if I was given the choice between him and I, I would choose I. He would treat me better, with more respect than J does.