Sick

Woke up on Thursday feeling under the weather, and I am definitely sick now. A cold, plus I know I have an ear infection in my left ear, and one of my teeth is throbbing. Driving me nuts, and I just don't feel good physically. Emotionally, still on the same page as yesterday. Still feeling like I've lost an important part of my life. I feel kind of lost, not quite sure which direction to turn. I'm tired of being alone, but I don't get out enough to meet new people. Seems like a Catch 22 sometimes. I can't meet anyone if I don't go out, but I hate going out alone. I always feel so self consious. Always feel like people are judging me, and why would they choose me over the skinny girl. I know I need to get out of that mentality, but it's hard. I tend to get more down on myself too, when I'm sick. Sucks. Ugh, ok, it's bed time.