There's a smile on my face

I got a great compliment tonight from someone I haven't seen in a long time. We had "fun" years ago, and managed to stay friends which is always nice. Though I haven't seen him in person since then, there is always the glorious world of facebook, and before that, myspace, where I post up pictures of my progress and and I have before pictures up too. Tonight I was talking to him, and he said I look incredible. Ok, I've been getting that one a lot lately. Then he followed it with " But then [he] always thought [I] was sexy." That made me feel awesome. He also invited me up to spend a weekend with him, and his girlfriend. I'd have to talk t j about that one. But I think it would be fun.  I also heard from M tonight. I hear from him so randomly now, and I still haven't told him that I'm with J. Tonight, I made some excuses as to why I couldn't meet up with him. I feel bad, because he's a sweet guy, and I like spending time with him, but he pops in and out of my life so randomly. There's also the fact that he had said he doesn't ever want anymore kids, and he never wants to get married. Two of the big things that I'm looking for. So while I feel bad, I only feel a little tiny bit bad, because at the same time, Hello, I'm not going to wait around for someone I can't build a family with, that randomly ops in and out of my life. He can't expect me to. I didn't get to see J today. His mom had the day off, and he didn't go to/have school, which is why I normally will see him during the week, picking him up and taking him home. I wish I knew how to more open with my feelings in person. I can convey things so much better through text. When I'm face to face, I have a tendency to lose my words, and get tongue tied, which isn't conducive at all. Still, even though I did other stuff today, I wish I had gotten to see him. Once I start working I won't be seeing him as often, so I want to get in as much time now as I can.